My Ex Came Back, It was the Biggest Mistake Ever

A lot of the time, I my ex back because of Fear, not of him, the fear of having to cope on my own, with the kids, the house, the mortgage, I never ever went back cause I really wanted be with him, as a person it was always the security.

So it was honestly doomed for failure, I hadn't whole heartily wanted it to work. It was just handier than being on my own.

For many years, me and my husband, just could not get on. We fought over every thing and anything. He would nit pick and do my head in. Always finding something to moan at. And of course I was perfect!

I wasn't always right, but most of the time I
thought I was!

He would leave and few days later be back and we would battle for another few years. This went on for years.

The final time we split up for 11 months.

To be honest, it was like a weight lifted off me. I was happy, laughing with my friend.

I swore never again I would go back to that Muppet!
My ball and chain was lifted.

I did NOT want my ex back ever again.( I thought)

On our last break up , I decided this could not keep going on, some thing had to change. Over the years we had done terrible things to each other.

I didn't plot to kill, but I did do my level best to hurt him.

My kids would end up seriously Messed up, listening to us fightin, not talkin, together, broke up, back together.

This is hard to admit, but I had to change me. Yes it wasn't always my husband. I had to change my way of thinking, we needed help before my ex came back

I had to stop being a victim by that I mean, I used to think "why does shit always happen to me" "poor me" feeling sorry for my self.

"I can't cope on my own" I suppose I didn't really value me. I was someone's wife, mother of two. A "people pleaser".

My son would say "I was a Donkey",

Yes "no prob", I would say. And then be raging I got suckered in to do something I didn't really want to.

I couldn't say No!

So I had to find me, Who was Jackie! I was in there somewhere I just had to figure out where.

I started to read, this was a first for me, I might stretch to the Sunday Tabloids, but I never read a book. I know Sad, now I value books, so it's never too late to learn.

I read a lot of self help books, some of it went over my head, but a lot I could relate to, I felt empowered. I could see how even thing that happen as a child effect you later.

Now I wouldn't have had the ideal up bringing. Although when you read other people's stories, oh my god, in comparison mine, was a lot better than their's!

When I finally found ME!, I was on the right road to sorting out the other parts of my life.

I started to want my ex back, I accepted half of the responsibility of why thing weren't working.

I got an email one day about Magic of Making up, Sounded ok, I could relate to this more than any of the "relationship specialist" we had visited costing a fortune.

They just sat there and listened to us moan, but never said much, we always left these sessions feeling sad, angry and not any closer to each other.

A little while after that, me and my husband went on a "Date" All excited, I felt like a young one again.

Slowly but surely we fell in love again, ah! I have to say, The Magic of Making up did give us back our Magic.

My Ex is Now Back and We Have a Future