The 5 Degrees of Insanity

How long can one live on 3 hours of sleep per night and stay sane?






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Well so this is where the whole being a vampire thing would come in handy. You see for me, and again, your experience may be completely different... this is my own journey *oh I love Journey, I'm a total 80's chick, Big Wheel Keep on Turnin* anyway for me the loss of sleep was the beginning of a huge downward spiral, but I didn't see it coming.

Through lack of it, I have found that sleep is a real benifit to humans everywhere. Has to be. Why the lack of sleep you ask? Let me tell you about my wonderful, amazing, beautiful, lovely 4 month old little baby girl who is the light of my life and cause of my ultimate ruin.

She hasn't slept more than 4 hours at a stretch in her whole gosh dang little life. And I am her mommy. Did I mention she hasn't slept more than 4 hours at a stretch in 4 WHOLE months?

She is why I sit here writing a stinking sQiIDoo lens (what the??) at 3:28 am drinking Juicy Juice spiked with Jose Cuervo. Really? Juicy Juice? Yeah, well the punch is really good and my other daughter asks for a cup of the stuff and then takes a sip and leaves the rest so I find these mostly full cups of Juicy Juice sitting around so I figure why waste the stuff.

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Let me make this clear. I am NOT a drunk or a drinker nor do I keep alcohol in mass quantities in my home. I do know a few drunks and while they are such nice individuals, they have brought utter dispair and ruin upon themselves because they've acted like asses in public and have received DUI's **even in other countries and have gotten deported!** and I'm like, DUDE what are you doing? You are totally ruining your life, stop the insanity! *Like that white haired buzz cut chick with the diet thing about stopping the insanity, its the same thing you know? I think she was really smart... what was her name... Susan something... * anyway: Do NOT drink yourself into a mess. It isn't going to help anything.

So now with that said and I'm sitting here with my Juicy Juice coctail, degree number two in my personal insanity meter had to be when I actually said, "I need a drink."

If you've said this, you've likely been deprived of sleep and you don't even know it.

Let's progress on to degree number 3.

I read that book in high school at some point. I remember my teacher seemed very gay but back then nobody said anything about it but now, looking back, yes, he was indeed gay. So who cares anyway, he was a good teacher. That's a whole other lens.

So in the Inferno, there was a level where the tortured souls did nothing but push giant boulders up hill over and over and over again. Throughout eternity. In the brutal heat. My god the heat! That had to be hell.

The whole doing something over and over and over again is degree number 3. They say something like insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different outcome? Yeah. I realized I was doing this and yes indeed it is a huge indicator of insanity.

My boulders are many and varied. One is financial. This one I am leaving at the bottom of the hill though. I have seen the light and know exactly what I've been doing wrong. (spending too much money) While that's easy to do in the current economy, it doesn't make it right or excusable. So maybe my insaneness is crumbling? Nah.

I still have the boulders that are my children. Nothing you can do about that. Now I know why my parents are the way they are.

Again, I cannot remind you enough that this is my own insane chronicle. Yours might probably surely be different. BUT, likely if you're at the inferno's boulders... you're nuts.






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Seems like crazy people can take an intermission whenever they like. They just sort of zone out or start talking out on some strange tangent...

My point is, don't run yourself into the ground. This actually is degree number 4 because you can truly make yourself mad if you don't have down time. A person can only get up at 4 am to make the coffee and then do laundry and fix breakfast and get everybody off to work and stuff and then work her own fingers to the bone and then do the dishes and fix dinner and work on more paperwork and stuff and then stay up all night with the baby.....

You get the picture. I need a facial.

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I looked at myself in the mirror and thought, "how did that happen?"

Hair askew, makeup from the day before, (or was that 2 days before?) ugly stained t shirt and ill fitting jeans. Not a pretty sight. I thought I must be nuts to go out of the house looking like that. I was right. Loony cue number 5 is personal hygiene slash appearance in a sub par state for more than a week.

That's where I'm at now, and I figure its time to stop the bus and get off so I can take a breather and regain a measure of sanity.

Time to clean up, get my hair done and find some cute outfits. It really does matter how we project ourselves to the outside world. And I'm sure my husband would appreciate someone easier to look at than what I've got going on here at the moment.

Sure does feel good to get this all off my chest, and I hope you enjoyed yourself at my expense. Please feel free to leave your own observations on crazy at the door.

Peace!