A Wounded Daughter’s Survival by Deborah Leigh Alexander
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A Wounded Daughter's Survival by Deborah Leigh Alexander
In this true story, a wounded daughter shows how emotional abuse damages lives. It tells of survival, discovery, and healing, giving hope that a functional future is possible.
Foreword
Some have compared the process involved in counseling to the act of peeling an onion. There are many layers that have to be removed before one finds the core. In the case of Debbie an incident occurred in a safe place - her church - that began the unpeeling. However, in her case she knew what her core consisted of.
A Wounded Daughter's Survival is Debbie's journey - beginning with the life-changing incident and travelling back to her childhood. What she uncovered led her to an understanding of the causes of feelings and behaviors related to her family of origin. What made her journey bearable is her profound belief in Jesus Christ.
The unpeeling began with Debbie's realization that her adult feelings in regard to her parents were a direct result of feelings of rejection and unworthiness she had felt as a child. There were many incidents that Debbie recalls that validated those feelings: her intense feelings of confusion when her mother was attacked, when her grandfather accidentally shot someone, her parents' divorce and subsequent remarriage.
Once she was able to unpeel the outer layer, Debbie was able to begin to understand the significance of the events that influenced her relationship with each of her parents. As she continued to unpeel the layers she realized that her family had, indeed, been dysfunctional. And, the dysfunction led to the continued uneasiness she felt as an adult when in their presence.
Debbie has told her story - a story of generational dysfunction - one that could be similar to the stories of others. What makes her story unique is how God has led her through her "unpeeling." The support she has received in her journey has enabled her to complete the process. With God's guidance Debbie has been able to heal her emotional wounds and become the person God intended her to be.
Athena H. Bean, M.Ed., LPC
Introduction--The pond that appeared clear on the surface was stirred, revealing the murky, dirty water underneath. At age forty-six, I experienced a trigger event that brought all the repressed memories from my childhood to the surface. These were memories of survival, and they were not pleasant. That is why I had buried them so far back in my mind; I never wanted to face them. It hurt to be forced to confront the past because of the shame I had always felt. However, I determined to set out on a journey to revisit the things that brought trauma and hurt to my life and to reach a destination of healing and peace. The purpose of this journey, taken completely with God's guidance, is to reveal the truth regarding my childhood. I chose to do this for my family's sake as well as my own.
One of the things I discovered is that I was not alone in my struggles. It's easy to feel like you are the only one experiencing such intense wounds and no one will understand how you feel, but that is false. The reality is completely the opposite.
Foreword
Some have compared the process involved in counseling to the act of peeling an onion. There are many layers that have to be removed before one finds the core. In the case of Debbie an incident occurred in a safe place - her church - that began the unpeeling. However, in her case she knew what her core consisted of.
A Wounded Daughter's Survival is Debbie's journey - beginning with the life-changing incident and travelling back to her childhood. What she uncovered led her to an understanding of the causes of feelings and behaviors related to her family of origin. What made her journey bearable is her profound belief in Jesus Christ.
The unpeeling began with Debbie's realization that her adult feelings in regard to her parents were a direct result of feelings of rejection and unworthiness she had felt as a child. There were many incidents that Debbie recalls that validated those feelings: her intense feelings of confusion when her mother was attacked, when her grandfather accidentally shot someone, her parents' divorce and subsequent remarriage.
Once she was able to unpeel the outer layer, Debbie was able to begin to understand the significance of the events that influenced her relationship with each of her parents. As she continued to unpeel the layers she realized that her family had, indeed, been dysfunctional. And, the dysfunction led to the continued uneasiness she felt as an adult when in their presence.
Debbie has told her story - a story of generational dysfunction - one that could be similar to the stories of others. What makes her story unique is how God has led her through her "unpeeling." The support she has received in her journey has enabled her to complete the process. With God's guidance Debbie has been able to heal her emotional wounds and become the person God intended her to be.
Athena H. Bean, M.Ed., LPC
Introduction--The pond that appeared clear on the surface was stirred, revealing the murky, dirty water underneath. At age forty-six, I experienced a trigger event that brought all the repressed memories from my childhood to the surface. These were memories of survival, and they were not pleasant. That is why I had buried them so far back in my mind; I never wanted to face them. It hurt to be forced to confront the past because of the shame I had always felt. However, I determined to set out on a journey to revisit the things that brought trauma and hurt to my life and to reach a destination of healing and peace. The purpose of this journey, taken completely with God's guidance, is to reveal the truth regarding my childhood. I chose to do this for my family's sake as well as my own.
One of the things I discovered is that I was not alone in my struggles. It's easy to feel like you are the only one experiencing such intense wounds and no one will understand how you feel, but that is false. The reality is completely the opposite.
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Table of Contents
Foreword
Introduction
Part I
The Origin of Emotional Damage
Chapter One: My Family's Beginnings
Chapter Two: The Storm
Chapter Three: Generational Rejection-The Baggage
Chapter Four: Family Life before My Parents' Divorce
Chapter Five: The Doll Buggy
Chapter Six: After My Parents' Divorce
Chapter Seven: Grandpa's Attitude
Chapter Eight: Dad's Contribution
Chapter Nine: Billy Jeff
Chapter Ten: Grandpa's Addiction, Denial, and Emotional Disconnection
Chapter Eleven: My Mother's Secret
Chapter Twelve: Rationalizing Reasons to Relive the Dysfunction
Chapter Thirteen: Memories of Grandma Ada
Chapter Fourteen: Good-bye Security-Hello Dysfunction
Chapter Fifteen: Living in Confusion and Chaos without God
Chapter Sixteen: Lack of Qualifications
Chapter Seventeen: Old Problems Resurface
Chapter Eighteen: The Worst Part of Childhood
Chapter Nineteen: Emotional Pain Becomes a Physical Illness
Chapter Twenty: Fourth-Grade Abandonment
Chapter Twenty-One: More Experiences of Emotional Abuse
Part II
Childhood Healing Begins
Chapter Twenty-Two: The Beginning of a Time that Felt Better
Chapter Twenty-Three: The Best Experience of My Life
Chapter Twenty-Four: Major Life Changes for the Better
Part III
The Dating Era
Chapter Twenty-Five: The High-School Dating Years
Chapter Twenty-Six: The Beginning of a Forever Love
Chapter Twenty-Seven: The Worst Decision I Ever Made
Part IV
The Functional Era Begins
Chapter Twenty-Eight: A Proposal of Marriage
Chapter Twenty-Nine: Our Wedding Day
Chapter Thirty: God Provides a Safety Net for Life and Marriage
Chapter Thirty-One: Newlywed Adjustments
Chapter Thirty-Two: A Memorable New Year's Eve
Chapter Thirty-Three: God Blesses Us with a Son
Chapter Thirty-Four: Grandma Ada's Sixty-Eighth Birthday
Chapter Thirty-Five: Continuing My Education
Chapter Thirty-Six: Overcoming Obstacles and Reaching Graduation Day
Chapter Thirty-Seven: 1984
Chapter Thirty-Eight: God Blesses Our Family Again
Chapter Thirty-Nine: The Key to a Functional Family Life
Chapter Forty: A Healing, Growing Period
Chapter Forty-One: More Blessings than Pain
Chapter Forty-Two: How Life Would Be Different for Our Children
Chapter Forty-Three: Our Family Becomes Complete
Part V
Moving to Texas
Chapter Forty-Four: Our New Life Begins in Texas
Chapter Forty-Five: Living a Genuine Miracle
Chapter Forty-Six: The Peace that Comes from Knowing God
Chapter Forty-Seven: Always Put Your Faith and Trust in God-Not Man
Chapter Forty-Eight: The Trigger Revives Old Emotional Trauma
Part VI
Life After the Trigger
Chapter Forty-Nine: Many Normal Life Changes
Chapter Fifty: Ending the Denial and Facing the Past
Chapter Fifty-One: Seeking Professional Help
Chapter Fifty-Two: Working Through the Dysfunctional Childhood
Chapter Fifty-Three: Making Sense of the Past and Discovering the Truth
Chapter Fifty-Four: Fitting the Pieces Together
Chapter Fifty-Five: Ending the Compensating through True Healing
Chapter Fifty-Six: Tangible Proof of My Survival through Faith in God-The Functional Legacy Begins
Part VII
A Future Free of the Past-A Future Lived in Truth
Chapter Fifty-Seven: The Power of Forgiveness
Chapter Fifty-Eight: What Is Your Family Legacy?
Chapter Fifty-Nine: Our True Reality
Chapter Sixty: Why Some People Believe There Is No God
Chapter Sixty-One: How Emotional Abuse Affects Us All
Introduction
Part I
The Origin of Emotional Damage
Chapter One: My Family's Beginnings
Chapter Two: The Storm
Chapter Three: Generational Rejection-The Baggage
Chapter Four: Family Life before My Parents' Divorce
Chapter Five: The Doll Buggy
Chapter Six: After My Parents' Divorce
Chapter Seven: Grandpa's Attitude
Chapter Eight: Dad's Contribution
Chapter Nine: Billy Jeff
Chapter Ten: Grandpa's Addiction, Denial, and Emotional Disconnection
Chapter Eleven: My Mother's Secret
Chapter Twelve: Rationalizing Reasons to Relive the Dysfunction
Chapter Thirteen: Memories of Grandma Ada
Chapter Fourteen: Good-bye Security-Hello Dysfunction
Chapter Fifteen: Living in Confusion and Chaos without God
Chapter Sixteen: Lack of Qualifications
Chapter Seventeen: Old Problems Resurface
Chapter Eighteen: The Worst Part of Childhood
Chapter Nineteen: Emotional Pain Becomes a Physical Illness
Chapter Twenty: Fourth-Grade Abandonment
Chapter Twenty-One: More Experiences of Emotional Abuse
Part II
Childhood Healing Begins
Chapter Twenty-Two: The Beginning of a Time that Felt Better
Chapter Twenty-Three: The Best Experience of My Life
Chapter Twenty-Four: Major Life Changes for the Better
Part III
The Dating Era
Chapter Twenty-Five: The High-School Dating Years
Chapter Twenty-Six: The Beginning of a Forever Love
Chapter Twenty-Seven: The Worst Decision I Ever Made
Part IV
The Functional Era Begins
Chapter Twenty-Eight: A Proposal of Marriage
Chapter Twenty-Nine: Our Wedding Day
Chapter Thirty: God Provides a Safety Net for Life and Marriage
Chapter Thirty-One: Newlywed Adjustments
Chapter Thirty-Two: A Memorable New Year's Eve
Chapter Thirty-Three: God Blesses Us with a Son
Chapter Thirty-Four: Grandma Ada's Sixty-Eighth Birthday
Chapter Thirty-Five: Continuing My Education
Chapter Thirty-Six: Overcoming Obstacles and Reaching Graduation Day
Chapter Thirty-Seven: 1984
Chapter Thirty-Eight: God Blesses Our Family Again
Chapter Thirty-Nine: The Key to a Functional Family Life
Chapter Forty: A Healing, Growing Period
Chapter Forty-One: More Blessings than Pain
Chapter Forty-Two: How Life Would Be Different for Our Children
Chapter Forty-Three: Our Family Becomes Complete
Part V
Moving to Texas
Chapter Forty-Four: Our New Life Begins in Texas
Chapter Forty-Five: Living a Genuine Miracle
Chapter Forty-Six: The Peace that Comes from Knowing God
Chapter Forty-Seven: Always Put Your Faith and Trust in God-Not Man
Chapter Forty-Eight: The Trigger Revives Old Emotional Trauma
Part VI
Life After the Trigger
Chapter Forty-Nine: Many Normal Life Changes
Chapter Fifty: Ending the Denial and Facing the Past
Chapter Fifty-One: Seeking Professional Help
Chapter Fifty-Two: Working Through the Dysfunctional Childhood
Chapter Fifty-Three: Making Sense of the Past and Discovering the Truth
Chapter Fifty-Four: Fitting the Pieces Together
Chapter Fifty-Five: Ending the Compensating through True Healing
Chapter Fifty-Six: Tangible Proof of My Survival through Faith in God-The Functional Legacy Begins
Part VII
A Future Free of the Past-A Future Lived in Truth
Chapter Fifty-Seven: The Power of Forgiveness
Chapter Fifty-Eight: What Is Your Family Legacy?
Chapter Fifty-Nine: Our True Reality
Chapter Sixty: Why Some People Believe There Is No God
Chapter Sixty-One: How Emotional Abuse Affects Us All
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- Adding "A Wounded Daughter's Survival" to my TBR list. Thank you for sharing your story of abuse in hopes of helping others work through their own experience with abuse.
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- I'm sure your book will help a lot of people. The outline sounds interesting and it appears your life has turned out very well.
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- Thank you for visiting my lens. I hope many people find my book interesting, helpful, and healing as well. I definitely found healing during the writing process.
By the way, love this profile picture of your son's Monet creation, it's beautiful. The colors are gorgeous. Monet is one of my favorite artists :)
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