Diary of a fat squid

Well this really nice guy who could care less about what my outsides look like fell in love with me and asked me to marry him.

I said YES!







The Groom and I Holloween 2009

Every girl dreams of the beautiful white dress with the long train....

I want that SOOOOOOO bad!

but I don't wan to look like the michelin man or the staypuff marshmellow guy on my wedding day!

So once again I start the struggle to losse....again.

I did manage to get down to 206 lbs back in 2006. A weight loss of about 70 lbs. But as you can see I gained most of it back.

Ok so I am not some skinny mini.

To be honest I could use/need to loose 100 pound.

But 100 is such a big number. So I am going to try to loose 25 pounds by June.

I found out my insurace covers Weight Watchers, so I signed up for 14 weeks.
Just waiting for my membership info to come in the mail. Should be here Monday.

In the mean time...

I got myself a pair of Fila shape up type walking shoes and actually walked 2 1/2 miles today. Calfs and Quads are NOT happy with me. I bet they will be screaming at me in the morning.

I am hoping to do 4, 40 minute work outs a day. 1 at 4 am on an empty tummy to burn old fat. 1 from 9:10 am to 9:50. another from 4:15 to 4.55 ( I am a school bus driver a have 2, 1 hour breaks during my day ) The one more after dinner to help burn off dinner.

It has been a rough 10 days but I weigh in tomorrow we'll see what if anything I lost.

I have been very good about getting my 4 am work out in. The others have been hit and miss.

The weather here has been very cold with freezing fog or pouring down rain. Some how I really have a hard time getting motivated to run the track when it's freezing fog out. I know, I know excuses excuses

Had my first official Weight Watchers meeting today. I learned alot!

Better yet I weighed in at 259.4 lbs. The is a weight loss of 3 lbs! And I am below 260 WOO HOO!

Let see how I do next Saturday.

It has been a rough week. I came down sick with a cold so I have not worked out since Friday.

So I did not get the 5 lbs weight loss I was hoping for.

But I still did loose a little more. YIPPY!

New weight is 256.8, so I lost 2.6 lbs.

Yeah Me!

I was so sick this week. Took 2 days off work, did not go to the gym at all.

I was thinking for sure my weight would be up, but ..........

I LOST 4.8 POUNDS!!!

Best week so far!!!

I am so JAZZED!

New Weight is 252.00

Only a tiny .06 lb weight lost last week.....But hey it is still a loss.

I have lost 11 lbs so far. I weigh in today in 2 hours. Hopefully I my weight will be down a little more. I still have 89 lbs to go to get to my wedding goal weight. I am doing weight Watchers. My insurance is paying for it. Trick is if I miss more then 2 weekly meetings I have to pay for it. So it keeps my honest and keeps me going.

I have had a rough last two weeks.

After the big 4.8 lb weight loss the self defeating part of my brain freaked out! OMG she may actually do this! We must stop her!

My mind played every head game you can think of. I got really depressed. Being that time of the month and having Valentines Day treats ALL OVER the office, then the annual office chili cook off....well as you can see I will be happy if I don't have a gain this week.

Ok so I need an incentive to me keep going. So here is the deal.

I have to loose 50 lbs before I can try on any wedding dresses.

That's right, I can't set one foot in any bridal store until I drop 50.

I can do that....right?.....

Well I have been doing Weight Watchers for 6 months now and.........

Droll roll please.......

and as of today I have lost.....

40 LBS!!!!

10 more to go and I get to try on wedding dresses! WOOO HOO!!