Into The Friend Zone

So much for an introduction so yeah I had an experience on that some years ago. So here's my story and it doesn't bother me whenever I remember it since it happened a long time ago and I'm alright now.

This happened in 2006 when I was on my first year in college and I was 16 that time. I had a crush on a girl who happened to be my classmate who we will named Xandra. She was the type of girl I liked during that time--you know, smart, nice, friendly... So, I wasn't that competent when it comes to courting so I just made friends with her. For the next months we spent time together--as friends. We helped each other in some academic subjects we had a hard time, shared some assignments, shared some stories, walked home as the day ended. Just like friends.
Maybe I was taken to much for the steps I learned from what I learned from relationship in highschool. The friendship, dating, courting, marriage thing (oh I can't remember much now), but I remained somehow in friendship since I wasn't that confident to move to the next level that time probably due to I wasn't that mature enough that time.
So back to our story, after a few months I couldn't keep the feelings and I started to express some of them to her. Then one day, she confronted me and told me that her feelings on me couldn't be more than just friends...

I remember that it was a week before Valentines day and I was so sad that time. I even managed to write a poem that time. I was so sad I think it took me a month or two to recover from the sadness.
But I guess somehow that that's how things were meant to be. And we still remained to be friends even after that crisis (haha :P). I remember during those sad days I was jealous with the guys she dated, thinking they all looked like jerks (actually the really looked like one.. haha I'm bad). But that was just silly hahaha..

Sometimes when I think of this I would just remember how funny I was during that time.. Well that's just part of growing up. Nothing to regret from that since I also learned from that.
:)

Here's the silly poem I wrote on my sad time.

Even though I know there is no hope,
For being with the girl I love most.
Why is it difficult to cut the rope,
Not accepting that I had lost.

Why do I keep on holding on,
And keep on bearing the pain.
Now that everything is gone,
I am starting to feel insane.

Please, Oh Love another chance will you give me,
Stop the pain of this bleeding heart.
Help me set the girl I love free,
That I may move on and start.

I want to love again,
After this pain of letting go.
Like the way I loved Xandra,
That I may do so.

ooh drama .. haha actually the last line was a filler because I can't think of a rhyme :D