Katie's Squidoo Angel Wings 2012

When my dear sister died Thanksgiving Eve, 2 years ago, her constant affirmations that she was indeed and "Angel " rang true. I could not grieve for a long time. How could I? She couldn't be gone. Not that Angel. Her death was not in the "order of things". My Mother still with us and our older siblings, only seven now. It was supposed to be eight. We were always 8, four girls and four boys. Maureen, born a few years before me, was my roommate. She was sweet, had a huge heart, and was the "mother" when Mom was out. She took a lot of heat for that. But she did it, she was kind. An Angel.

Decorating her home with Angels (everywhere) was her way of reminding herself that she indeed had a Guardian Angel. Maureen, a person who never had much in material things (could almost be deemed "poor"), she found ways to enrich her life by giving. She had not one penny or material thing to give, but she gave more than anyone I know. Always there when needed, she indeed, is an Angel and watching over me, then and now.

Back to grieving for her. I'm not sure I have, I still don't accept that she is gone. She is NOT GONE! She is an Angel somewhere. I can write this with gut wrenching honesty since the "dream". Shortly after her death, I had a "dream" or was it? Getting out of bed with a feeling of fear, I walked around the house looking for someone. In my dream, the someone was one of my three children, who might not be home or lost. I looked, found no one. With a sigh, I fell back into bed with my back to the other side of my large double bed. Suddenly, I heard "Katie, I'm right here". I swiftly turned myself over and saw her, my sister Maureen, in flowing organza like cloth that was slightly blowing around. I looked again, and sighed with relief, "she is right next to me" I saw her! "There she is, she's not lost or gone", I thought.Thank the Heavens was all I could think. Then, I woke up. Heart pounding and looking again on the other side of the bed for her. Shoot, she wasn't there anymore. I believe her Angel heart came to visit and comfort me in my time of overwhelming grief to make sure I knew she was now an Angel. "An Angel" who was with me since the day I was born and will be there forever.
My Mom always said "God takes those he needs to help Him and makes them Angels. Maureen was and still is an Angel. My Guardian Angel.
I do want her "here" with Me! But if I can only live with her Angel Blessings, then that's just fine. She is right next to me, right?

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My Angel Peeps

Although dated, this photo is my favorite. Notice, each one is missing at least one tooth! Every single day I treasure my three "angels". That is who and what they are, true Angels. I have been Blessed with two girls and one boy that I had long given up on having. Yes, I tried for 5 years and had to undergo 2 surgeries to conceive. I gave up a year after the surgeries with no pregnancy, in tears but ready to move on. An Angel must have sprinkled some dust and "voila", I was blessed with my first of three angels. I do believe in divine intervention as I had lost all hope of ever Mothering a child, much less three. I do thank the Heaven's every day for the chance to enjoy these three wonderful people.

One in a while we find a friend who is an Angel in every sense of the word and meaning. I have been fortunate enough to have been blessed by the best. Featuring KonaGirl is a must as she has a special place in my heart. Never hesitating to help, even when I don't have to ask. Angel's are always there and always care, more than you ever thought they would. Thank You and all Angels that have blessed me.