Life Message #1

Everyone was expecting to live in a perfect world but instead it ended up becoming a trap hole. Nobody knew that this world would be a disaster, I wouldn't believe them because I thought that we can get what we want in life but I was wrong...again. I didn't know that every place could lead to a big disaster in every corner. Murders in the streets can lead to sudden death, accidents can lead to serious injuries, abortion can kill every child, racism can lead victims against our people, and rape can lead to pain, blood, & pregnancy. I never knew that living in this world wouldn't be easy because I tried my best to survive every inch of this place. My life has always been a bottomless trap hole where once you get in, there's no way out, I tried to prevent everything from falling apart but that never worked for me at all. I don't know how all this started and I don't know how to stop it either especially when i'm just one person with nothing left. Once one disaster happens another one happens in the next minute or so, once one person dies then another person will suffer pain & blood as well. It feels like i'm already in HELL right now and that Satan is probably telling me to 'run' because everything in my life turned to dust. Throughout my past, I tried running from all my fears since I been here because I didn't know how to face my fears whether I was weak or just completely scared. I'm a real different person trying to protect myself from getting messed up once I step out there. Gang violence has spread around this world since the beginning of time and i refuse to be the next victim. All the people who supported me throughout my past have died and it was hard for me to look back and ask myself 'what happened?' Somehow I just wish that none of this would happen and everything would just go back to where it was from the start. My life has been a living hell from the very beginning, I don't know what to do but I can't survive by myself.