Normal Eating - What I'm Learning from My Dietician

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My Dietician's Gift to Me - A Healthy Outlook on Food!

Every time I go to another appointment with my dietician, Jennifer Pereira, I go in feeling massive guilt, anxiety, and frustration. I walk away as if she's lifted a huge boulder off of my shoulders.

It's a very emotional process - having someone make me feel normal again. Someone who looks at what I did the past week, (all the bad things I've told myself I've done) and have her not judge me, give me a positive way to see my progress, and share realistic insight I can use to stabilize my relationship with food.

I've been overweight now for about 10 years. My relationship with food is so skewed and it's only now that I'm realizing the massive damage I've incurred from seemingly harmless influences from others.

Right now, in fact, I'm watching Biggest Loser - a show I used to love - and I'm seeing the damage the trainers are doing by reinforcing the bad feelings these weight loss contestants have about eating.

Jennifer's website, www.NutritionParadox.com, teaches what she's teaching me in local, live sessions - and I hope sharing some of my ups and downs and insight I'm gaining here will help others in their journey to feel normal again.

Oh, and that big, juicy burger in the upper left corner of this section? It's okay to order it. It's even okay to bite into it. Imagine that.

Note to Self:

There's No Such Thing as Good Foods and Bad Foods.

My Daily Food Intake - Monday, March 3 

On Friday night, I began stuffing myself to the point of misery. Not just overeating, but almost exploding. I haven't done this in forever. Can't even remember a time.
  • Breakfast - Coffee at 6:15 A.M. Ate 2 pieces turkey bacon and half a cinnamon roll (the kind you cook) Drank about 6 ounces 2% milk.
  • Snack - Ate a piece of carrot cake less than an hour later. Drank milk with it.
  • Lunch - Oh no! It's 10 AM and I'm already filling a plate with about half a rice casserole. Again, I ate until miserable. Couldn't even make a dent in the plate. Drank a Coke with it.
  • Snack -
  • Dinner -

Oh NO! Meltdown!

Stop. Analyze the situation, Tiff. What happened Friday before dinner was that we got all of the stuff out of our attic and I started going through it all.

Bad memories of childhood crept up (parents' divorce, etc) and that's when I started stuffing myself.

Haven't stopped yet, either. Friday, Saturday, Sunday, and now today. Last night I read a pitiful diary I wrote when I was in about 4th grade. So sad. I want to reach out to that little girl.

I Am Really Enjoying This Book on Mindless Eating! 

I bought this because the title just jumped out at me in Barnes and Noble. Reading it, I'm amazed at how often we think we're in control, when we're really not!

Mindless Eating: Why We Eat More Than We Think

Amazon Price: $9.60 (as of 07/26/2008)
List Price: $12.00

"Take back the reins when it comes to deciding how much you'e going to eat - at home and on the go. You're going to be shocked at how little you're controlling your own nutritional needs!"

Release Date: 08/28/2007

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Emotions About Weight Issues 

  • Other People's Weight Problems - This morning my husband was very cold and moody. I knew something was wrong, asked, but got no answers.

    Later he told me he's mad because he's back up to 210 and was 180, angry that he let himself get this out of control. He left to get out of the house.

    I don't know what's going on in his head, but what I feel is that he gets mad about his own weight and then looks at me with the same anger because I'm overweight, too. I don't know - because I'm not him. so now I feel anxious, nervous - and worried about how the rest of the day will go.

    He tends to do what I used to do on a diet - go full tilt boogie until burnout and quitting until the next time. Only with him, he lasts 1-3 months a pop while I only lasted 1-3 days max.

    Here's how it affects me - aside from feeling sorry for him, I start to feel like, "Why aren't I feeling angry at MYself, shouldn't I be pissed off at MYself, too? Is he mad at ME?" (It feels that way - like he's looking at me, and just annoyed with all fat people in general.)
  • Other People's Weight Loss Success - Now that my husband's annoyed about his weight, he's going full steam ahead. Eating like a rabbit, as he puts it, working out twice a day - running in the morning for a full hour and then working out at night.

    I don't know why but seeing him mix his protein shakes or run in the morning annoys me. I just wish he'd take a more reasonable approach - something he won't burn out on like I have done for so many years.

    Why do I care? Why does it bug ME? I know he'll lose everything super fast, get back down to 180 in about 4 weeks, and then he'll burn out and quit and gain it back slowly. It's a cycle.

Fiction, But Such a Good Read for Women With Weight Problems 

She's Come Undone (Oprah's Book Club)

Amazon Price: $7.99 (as of 07/26/2008)
List Price: $7.99

"While my own issues were nothing like the catastrophes she faced, I still enjoyed reading about how she used food to quell her anxiety. We all do this to a certain degree - those of us who battle weight problems."

Release Date: 12/31/1969

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Tip About Missing Meals! 

My dietician, Jennifer Pereira, talked to me about an issue I had about missing meals.

I would sometimes forget breakfast and snack and wind up starving by lunchtime. Should I eat a LOT then or what do I do? I asked.

Her reply helped me Sunday, February 24th. I had woken up late and it was already 1:45 when I was ready for my snack or lunch. So I did what she taught me.

I made the snack and ate it while I was cooking my lunch. That little head start made me only eat a fraction of my lunch. If I hadn't had the snack, I'm sure I would have scarfed the entire lunch.

Another thing she told me when I'm at that uncontrollable hunger phase is to have some water before I eat and then eat slowly. It's working!

Visit My Dietician's Lens on Squidoo! 

I was amazed when Jennifer asked me what I did, and I told her much of it had to do with Squidoo, that she was already on here! Please visit her lens and learn from her - it will change your life.

Do You Feel Abnormal Because of the Way You Eat? 

Logitco

I love your lens. There's a lot of frustration and pain when it comes to a goal that seems almost impossible to achieve. My own problems aren't weight focused, but I noticed many parallels between your dissatisfaction with your body and my own with my personal situation. Instead of eating, I played video games... but your mental thought processes were basically the same as mine! I'd get frustrated, play a game, and then get chastise myself for playing the game when I could have been working towards my goals! (More career oriented)

My food relationship is excellent being a foodie, but I just wanted to give you a thumbs-up on your lens!

Posted May 09, 2008

Evelyn_Saenz

What a great lens! 5 stars and favored!

The Fair Committee is looking for suggestions for healthy food to be sold at the Wardsboro 4th of July Celebration. Please leave suggestions in the Healthy Food Suggestion Box .

Posted May 08, 2008

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