I have Prosopagnosia - I can't recognize faces.

I was often described as quiet and shy in school, but my difficulty with recognizing faces was never noticed by a teacher or anyone else. I had other difficulties and strengths that were noticed: a severe speech and language delay and a high IQ ("gifted").

One particular task proved to be quite difficult for me. Sometimes teachers would have the students hand back graded papers. This was a task I had a very hard time doing and I tried to avoid it.

I had an especially difficult time telling apart the boys because many of them had similar haircuts. As a kid, haircuts were something I paid a lot of attention to.

How did I hide my problem in school? Well, with handing back papers, I would simply put the paper to the bottom of the stack if I didn't know who the kid was. Fortunately, the teacher often had several students hand back the papers at the same time, so I would wait until there was a stack of papers already on each kids' desk. Then I would surreptitiously look at the names on the papers and then match up the hand written names. Sometimes this took me a long time, and often the teacher would decide to finish the task. If the teacher noticed my difficulty, she never said anything to me.

I now wonder if my problem with recognizing faces contributed to my desire to always sit up front next to the teacher and becoming the teacher's pet. Of course I could always recognize the teacher. I also didn't make many friends, and my Mother felt that my social skills were delayed, and it is very possible that the Prosopagnosia was part of the reason.

My earliest awareness that something was different with my brain was a conversation I had with my Dad about remembering people's names.

I told him that I had a hard time remembering people, and he assumed that I meant remembering names.

I listened to his name remembering tips, and thought they were good ones, but of course it didn't solve my problem.

I didn't realize then that my real problem was remembering faces, not names.

In college, I still didn't know that I had trouble recognizing faces, and so I didn't take that into consideration when applying for work. I worked at a Deli for a couple of days.

During the early morning rush, there were several customers ordering food at the same time, and I prepared a bagel for one customer and then didn't know which customer it was that had ordered it. The customer was angry and frustrated with my apparent stupidity.

I'm sure that contributed to me being fired after only two days. How did I think about this experience? I thought "I forgot to remember who ordered this bagel..." I was aware that I had made an error, but I didn't know that it had to do with face blindness.

It's hard to follow the plot of movies if all of the people are dressed very similarly (i.e. uniforms, or stereotypical period dress) and have similar hair cuts, too. It's hard to recognize people if I've only seen them infrequently, because I don't have much information stored on what they look like. It's also hard if I see someone one place, and then I see them in a different place where I'm not expecting to see them. The circumstance in which I see someone is one of the big clues that allow me to figure out who they are.

My Prosopagnosia isn't as severe as some people, because I've never had trouble recognizing family members or people close to me. However, I still have an inability to visualize faces of almost anyone. I can visualize places and objects, but it is hard to recall visual images of faces without looking at photos or people themselves. This applies even to people that I do recognize.

I can't remember exactly how I discovered Prosopagnosia or Face Blindness, but about five years ago, I was on the internet, and I came across a website about it. It was an immediate recognition. "That's me."

I cried... and my husband and I talked about it. He is super supportive and now when I ask questions like "Who is that" in a movie, I don't feel embarrassed or dumb. And now there's an explanation if I don't recognize someone.

What a world of difference it makes to have a name for the problem, and to know that other people also have it.

Now, supposedly there is no cure for the disorder. However, I've been working on improving my face recognizing abilities. Or heck, improving my abilities to recognize people, whether it's their face or some other aspect! I watch movies and TV for practice. Now with High Definition, using the TV for practice is almost as good as real life, and of course on TV you can expose your mind to many faces easily. Practice, practice, practice!

I used to not know what it meant for someone to have a high cheek bone. Now I look at faces and try to describe them and try to remember them. I've started to recognize similarities between faces. Sometimes I'm wrong, and I think someone is someone else, but I'm learning...

I know it's getting better for me. I still get lost in some movies. But now I can actually sometimes recognize famous actors, even though they appear as different characters in different movies. I have also been practicing recognizing people by the sound of their voice. I think it's a good way to compensate for face recognition problems.

The brain can definitely change over time. It's called neural plasticity. The neurons can make new pathways. I have been trying to help my brain change by taking the nootropic drugs Piracetam and Aniracetam. I think that they do make a difference and hope that someday there will be clinical trials with them or other drugs to see if people can be cured of Prosopagnosia and other brain disorders.

I overcame my speech language problems, and if that's possible, why isn't is possible to overcome Prosopagnosia?