My Spiritual life

I found school life very demanding. I wasn't like the other children. I was sensitive and hated others pain. I loved animals, enjoyed nature a lot more then other children. I much preferred playing in the rain to sitting in the class room all day. I was always the last one chose and they only ever chose me because they had too. I was even picked on by younger children.
High school was in my opinion vile because I was a door mat, a punch bag and some one every one had a laugh about when ever they fancied.
I felt sorry for the bullied and tried to take care of them then got done down in then end. One girl who is a negative person still to this day try to make me out the bully when she is the one whom nearly got me thrown out of school with her rotten lies she even started telling these fibs to some one she worked with on a juice bar in my local shopping centre. My soul sister would vouch for this as, as we tried to sit an enjoy our juice drinks she and her colleague was staring at us in that way.
How ever, every thing happens for a reason and she had her reasons to be the way she was.
I started to learn how to mix with others when I went to college. It still ended up in tears because one girl spread rumours about something so personal and It did hurt me because I was still sensitive. I have been hurt by many boys and men. I was a trusting soul.
These have hardened me up. I will always have a sensitive streak in me.

I have done so much in order to find my path. I have been through relationship problems, had my own baby, been to many different courses and it has took me 7 years to find out what I need to be doing. I found out what I needed to do when my daughter became about 3. I met my soul sister and she showed me the way to spiritual. He, Andre and my daughter helped me so much come from nothing to what I am know. With the push from my daughter, the knowledge of my sister and brother I am everything I am now so guys I love you and thank you.

My sister tough me to heal

My brother taught me to be who you are

and My little girl gave me the push to do the course I met them on. Also gave me a push to succeed.

You guys are amazing

LOVE AND LIGHT

A smile goes a long way,
Smile at that old lady,
It may make her day.
Smile at the little boy,
It may make him feel loved.
Give a smile to that young lad,
He lost his mother this year.
Give a smile to world,
Make it a better place.
Lets wipe away the sadness,
Lets wipe away its tear.

I am sick of the way people abuse the earth. I see it everyday. I see teenager stomping over people plants on their way from school. I watch people throw rubbish on the floor the kick it around a bit the walking off. I have seen drivers speed over 40miles per hour faster then they should. This causes higher fuel consumption and does not do good for the planet at all.
I understand that some things for many families are hard to do such as changing their bill to greener companies because it may be dearer, and having solar panels put in this is understandable but its the smaller things that count such as re-cycling, and using the energy saving bulbs.

Every day I am learning new things. Things happen for a reason. I lost a pregnancy in November 2011 this was devastating because I wanted nothing more then to give my partner the chance to be a farther. This proving so hard. This has made me realise how precious my daughter really is. And I have to know try to lose weight to improve my health so that we can conceive. We have been trying for a baby now 7 months and nothing.
Hope it happens soon.