What Dreams May Come

May 02, 2009

I was inside a building, I think it was a home or an apartment. The location didn't matter because it was so hazy and pushed to the background I really didn't notice it much. I get the feeling that I'm leaving or going somewhere. I wasn't really sad although I don't think I wanted to leave I knew I had to. I think it was for growth and career reasons but I know it was meant to be temporary, I wouldn't be gone forever. Then I see myself standing in front of a man, he's much taller than me because when we held each other my head only came up to his chest. He knew I had to go even though I don't recall us saying anything to each other. We said our goodbyes by embracing each other tightly. For a brief moment I saw myself from the outside sort of a like a camera. I was getting a 360 degree look at our embrace. We slowly pulled away but not out of each others' arms and he kissed me. It was a slow, sensual kiss and before I knew it I was awake. Unlike my other dreams like this I didn't wake up feeling sad and alone. Instead I felt at peace. I wasn't sad in my dream because we both understood that it was something I had to do for myself and that it wasn't a forever thing. I would return and I knew he'd be there when I did.

"It is not more surprising to be born twice than once; everything in nature is resurrection." -Voltaire

"God generates beings, and sends them back over and over again, till they return to Him." -Koran

While I was surfing Youtube and listening to Myth by Jolin Tsai, the video made me think of reincarnation and past lives. So does Hair Like Snow by Jay Chou. I don't know what they're saying though, it's the videos that triggered my memory. I thought I'd share a few of my past lives, well, the only two that I know of. I had these readings done many years ago so I don't remember too much of the details (they're probably saved somewhere). Keep in mind that I know there are scammers out there that will tell you anything to make a few bucks. They'll tell you you're someone great in history like Alexander, Cleopatra, etc. Now, that doesn't mean someone out there wasn't these people at one point, someone had to have been, you just have to be careful about these things. My readings were done by people who knew nothing about me, I gave them minimal information and they went from there. Oh and it was completely free. Many things that they told me made sense to my current life because there are several points in their reading that pretty much mirrored my current life. These weren't vague information either, and it wasn't something they could have found by searching (which was hard to do since the only information I gave them was at the time of the reading). Here's Myth with English translations, the song is more beautiful if you understand the lyrics.

"I am confident that there truly is such a thing as living again, that the living spring from the dead, and that the souls of the dead are in existence." -Socrates

The Nun

Germany, 18th century

A young woman was raped and from that incident bore a child, a daughter. Fortunately for her she met a wealthy, kind-hearted man who loved not only her but her daughter as if she were his own. Despite finding a good man and having a stable home, the woman couldn't forget that violent night and was prone to depression. She seldom smiled, she was usually quiet and lost in thought. She loved her daughter very much but when the woman looked at the girl she's reminded of how she was conceived., because of that the little girl would spend most of her time with her stepfather which led to their strong bond. During those days, with wealth came power and the man didn't hesitate to use his power when it came to his daughter. He wanted the best for her and even as a child she loved to learn so he made sure she got the best education he could buy her. The little girl eventually grew up and decided to join the church so that she could use her education to teach less fortunate girls to read and write. The sister did many charitable works in her community and was respected. But rumors started when people noticed that she and a priest would spend a great amount of time alone together. A scandal like that could ruin a woman, especially one of the cloth but because of who her father was no one dared to outwardly accuse her of anything and so she was left in peace. The villagers weren't completely wrong to speculate that there was something going on, there was something between the sister and the priest but whatever it was neither of them would act on it, and so they lived out their lives in the monastery as good friends.

A Tragic Affair

Britain (?) 15th or 16th century (?)

This one is short because it's the least that I know of.

There was a man who lived a long time ago. He was well-to-do, had land and property, but his life came to an abrupt ending. He loved his wife but his wife had an affair and either killed him, had her lover kill him or both plotted his murderous ending.

Breaking It Down

Now, let's point out some of the parallels from those lives to my present one. I'll leave some aspects out just because it's too personal and I'd rather not have the whole world know about it.

First off, the nun's mother reminded me of my mother a little. I don't know if my mom gets depress but she does get a tad strange when she spends too much time alone. She's also very quiet, soft-spoken and tends to keep to herself.

Two. Growing up I've always been close to my dad, still fairly closer to my dad than my mom, or at least I tend to talk to him more. When I was little I'd sit on my dad's lap and he'd tell me stories of Laos and I'd tell him what I wanted to be when I grew up. He'd always remind me that no matter what I decide to do at least stay in school and get an education, whether I need the training for my profession or not.

Three. Speaking of school, I was very much like the nun in that I enjoyed learning. Believe it or not, I was the type of person that liked going to school. I know, I was such a nerd, LOL still am I guess. It wasn't being at school that I enjoyed, it was the learning, something I never tire of. In high school I was the do-it-all girl and I pretty much tried to do it all in high school. I'm in college now and so over school but I still enjoy the learning. I'm one of the few people in this world that enjoys watching the Discovery and History channel.

Four. At one point, when I was around nine years old I had told my dad I wanted to do something that would help others. One of the many things I wanted to be at the time was a pediatrician. For as long as I could remember I've always had this longing to do something that would help others. When I entered Jr. High was when I learned about the Peace Corps and ever since then I've considered joining. Still do.

Five. There was a time I seriously considered becoming a nun. I even looked up a few convents and what it took to become one. I was thinking along the lines of Mother Teresa. Of course I realized I just wasn't religious enough to commit myself to that.

As for the last life, well, I don't have much to say to that because I don't remember much of the reading except what I've written. I can't remember how he died but for some reason I think it has something to do with a present fear of mine or health issues, can't remember. FYI, the only health issue I have is asthma and I developed it around 11.

Overall, I seemed to have had some bad luck in the love/relationship department. I either went without it or I was betrayed and murder. Great. Let's just hope things turned out better in this life. Oh! I almost forgot to mention, after both readings (done by different people at different times) I was told that in this life my goal is to find love. I think there might've been something else but I can't remember.

"`But I tell you, Elijah has already come, and they did not recognize him, but have done to him everything they wished. In the same way the Son of Man is going to suffer at their hands.' Then the disciples understood that he was talking to them about John the Baptist." -Jesus, (Matthew 17:12, 13)

"The Celts were fearless warriors because "they wish to inculcate this as one of their leading tenets, that souls do not become extinct, but pass after death from one body to another..." -Julius Caesar